Hi dear SC and cheating family. I was thinking a lot yesterday about this post, and just because i`m anonymus i know that i can share my feelings and story right here. Btw i hope to hear some answers as well maybe from your own or comment mine.
I did tried cheats long time ago, i would say first wallhacks back in 1.6 CS. Since then, this addiction took me over. I haven`t played all my life, but i would say as a teenager i was cheating in every game, loads of accusations and things like that i never did care that much, to be honest i didint at all. I was caught up, never like in a tourney but just in public games, my friends start noticing that i`m not legit until i performed well in my first LAN tourney without hacks, i was lucky, so my name was after that like "skilled" player. But i always, and i mean i always trying to get advantage in any game, even in phone games, or like candy crush on facebook. Now, now im grown men, i do have wife, and that teenager addiction still with me, im still trying to cheat in every possible game, and here im, stuck in COD now, but as i mentioned COD, i want to share one story with u as well.
I used to play with legit group of guys since 1st season, i was using another provider, no names of course. These guys were really good, and after like 3 months they call me out, like 9 guys literally were in talking channel, and asking me why i do use wallhacks, why such a nice guy supposed to cheat, of course i said im not bla bla, they just asked me to admit it, and carry on, but i wasnt that brave to tell that im cheating.
The moral of the story, i had such a great time with them, a lot of laugh, btw after accusations in 1st ban wave 2 weeks later i got banned. I was start thinking, why this addiction is so bad, why i cant play legit, why i always want to dominate, but i never ever said on like 1.6kd or something like that, u noob or being toxic, always trying to talk and help and etc, but i knew deep in my hard that im total noob and im suck in gaming, i would never have 3kd without hacks, not even 2, no chance.
So to finish these stories, AC coming, i do have nice people again im playing with them like 7 months for now, since i joined SC, but same wallhack, without it, i cant play, i dont have a fun, and again thinking maybe shame that im trying to pretend as a good player, but deep in my heart im just a liar, no skilled liar, and the longer im cheating, the more it gets me inside because of lying, people telling me oh such a nice movement, game sense, i used to smile and take this as a compliment, but now it does hurt a bit, when i know that im suck in gaming, i CANT wipe even trios without cheats.
I`m maybe getting paranoya or another things, but i do start feeling that i cant lie to those people anymore, i mean i dont want to say that im cheating, but AC coming which means the HOURS of TRUTH can caught me up, and i will look like a grown nice guy, but also a liar and looser in front of a lot of people.
thanks for listening